Do you have a LOVE that Is Counting Years To Forget?

Do you have a LOVE that Is Counting Years To Forget?
Jun 7, 2011 20:13
guestStacey	My first love was my fourth boyfriend. I met him when I was 22. He was a foreigner. A Korean to be exact. He was my age when we met. I loved him so much. We were friends for 5 months, lovers for 4 months and had a long distance relationship for 5 months. We were so in-loved with each other that I never thought there could still be something that could get between us. Because he forgot his family for me. But there was a time when her mom told me she wanted her son to come home to get the credentials that he would need to enroll at a good school in the Philippines. And that I should promise to help him with everything. His mom was so sincere in talking to me. That was the first time he also had contact with his family because when he became my boyfriend he vowed to himself that he would forget his family for me. There is this something about Korean parents having something against foreign girlfriends or wives. His family didn''t like me to be exact. So he decided to forget them. But when his mom talked to me and saw her sincerity, I urged him to go home. He went home bringing just the dried mangoes he wanted to give his family. He left everything with a promise he would come back and I should wait for him no matter what. He would just stay in Korea for 1 or 2 weeks to get money and her credentials and after that we can be happily together again with his family''s blessing. I waited one, two weeks but he said his family tricked him and enrolled him at a university in Busan. I was so hurt. He told me he can escape for a friend of his can lend him money for a plane ticket but I told him not to do that cause I don''t know where we would live if he came here. He told me we could go to my parent''s house. But of course I couldn''t do that. That would disappoint my parents. So we just promised each other to wait and just go on with the relationship. It was so hard that I cried daily. I didn''t know what to do. We would always talk 2-3 hours on weekdays ( after my work) and 5 hours on weekends. We missed each other so much. But after 5 months he just surprised me when he cried and told me, " I am soo tired, I want to stop." I felt numbed. It took time for me to process what he said. That would be the last thing I thought he would tell me. We both cried. And everything ended that night. It has been exactly 4 years, 4 months and 8 days since I last hugged and kissed him. But until now, I cannot forget this one true love of mine. I tried to have a boyfriend after him but it didn't last long for I was not happy and I still loved my ex very much. Until now, I still cry when I remember him. I would do anything to see him once more and be able to hear his voice. My Christian church ( which I have been attending for 5 months) is helping me a lot. I do not think of him more often than before. I always pray to God that this pain will be completely healed for me to be able to move on and try loving someone again. I know that I am getting there for HE will help me

Jun 7, 2011 20:13

guestStacey

My first love was my fourth boyfriend. I met him when I was 22. He was a foreigner. A Korean to be exact. He was my age when we met. I loved him so much. We were friends for 5 months, lovers for 4 months and had a long distance relationship for 5 months. We were so in-loved with each other that I never thought there could still be something that could get between us. Because he forgot his family for me. But there was a time when her mom told me she wanted her son to come home to get the credentials that he would need to enroll at a good school in the Philippines. And that I should promise to help him with everything. His mom was so sincere in talking to me. That was the first time he also had contact with his family because when he became my boyfriend he vowed to himself that he would forget his family for me. There is this something about Korean parents having something against foreign girlfriends or wives. His family didn''t like me to be exact. So he decided to forget them. But when his mom talked to me and saw her sincerity, I urged him to go home. He went home bringing just the dried mangoes he wanted to give his family. He left everything with a promise he would come back and I should wait for him no matter what. He would just stay in Korea for 1 or 2 weeks to get money and her credentials and after that we can be happily together again with his family''s blessing. I waited one, two weeks but he said his family tricked him and enrolled him at a university in Busan. I was so hurt. He told me he can escape for a friend of his can lend him money for a plane ticket but I told him not to do that cause I don''t know where we would live if he came here. He told me we could go to my parent''s house. But of course I couldn''t do that. That would disappoint my parents. So we just promised each other to wait and just go on with the relationship. It was so hard that I cried daily. I didn''t know what to do. We would always talk 2-3 hours on weekdays ( after my work) and 5 hours on weekends. We missed each other so much. But after 5 months he just surprised me when he cried and told me, " I am soo tired, I want to stop." I felt numbed. It took time for me to process what he said. That would be the last thing I thought he would tell me. We both cried. And everything ended that night.

It has been exactly 4 years, 4 months and 8 days since I last hugged and kissed him. But until now, I cannot forget this one true love of mine. I tried to have a boyfriend after him but it didn't last long for I was not happy and I still loved my ex very much. Until now, I still cry when I remember him. I would do anything to see him once more and be able to hear his voice.

My Christian church ( which I have been attending for 5 months) is helping me a lot. I do not think of him more often than before. I always pray to God that this pain will be completely healed for me to be able to move on and try loving someone again. I know that I am getting there for HE will help me

Jun 9, 2011 02:44

JINGIGNACIO
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Moving on has never been so easy.It is a kind of process that really takes time before we finally feel that we are now ready to leave everything behind.And Moving on could really be toughed especially if there's still much love left for the person that we really loved the most....
But no matter how difficult it is, we have no any other options but to face the ending and feel the pain.
Because, it is the pain that really makes us strong and more ready to stand against the challenges in the future.

Jul 2, 2011 08:17

MARK_81
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Ya moving on can be very tough indeed! forgetting my first love back in perth was very difficult for me. so much so that for a while after I completely fell off the rails and became the ultimate party boy which I'm not proud of now! fortunetely for me I'm now together with the woman of my dreams. my soulmate. but getting here has been a wild ride so to speak. my friend Bubba has been through the same things too and our friendship has helped us both for sure!

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